Sorry!

I did promise pics yesterday but sadly that didn't happen, I got busy with my roomie, then Dave came over so yeah I hung out! It was fun so today I promise pics will posted :) Just keep your eyes open! They are gonna happen!!!

♡Manda♡

Wow Vacation #1

Vacation #1 was just amazing. I met some amazing people, I just feel that Nicole and I are on pins and needles around each other because we kinda bonded with the same guy, as a friend for me, but I don't know what Nicole thinks of him, but I feel like I'm not allowed to say his name or talk about how he has texted me and such. She has been a little kinda mean-ier. Its hard to explain I just feel like I can't mention Indy! Its sad, because he is such a cool guy!

I met more friends too! Wiggles is just awesome and he's a great cook :D Because of him, Indy and Smee I got to finally finish Torchwood : Children of Earth. I still am not sure of what I think of how it ended.. I was just like "Really Jack, your own Grandson?!?!" and I also think Ianto deserved a better death then what they gave him. But yeah Thanks guys for watching the show with me! I'm glad I met Dr. Who/Torchwood fans and to not mention anime. I felt so very welcome in the circle even though I'm not part of your WoW guild.... YET! Also the whole gang gave me a new nickname to welcome even more and I love it! My new nickname is 'Princess Tiny Feet' because of just how tiny my foot is xD. Gah I really miss everyone =(

Back to the weekend. The air was so fresh, the land was just awesome, and if I could I think I might move, it was just so me up there. It was beautiful. I just wish I could of stayed. Not to worry though next year we are staying for the week!!! I really can't wait to spend more time with Indy, Wiggles, Smee, Kayy & all the others!

Pics of the trip will be uploaded tomorrow after work I think. I didn't take to many, but I can post what I took. There is one picture I wanted to take and forgot about all about it, I'm very sad about it. The sky was just so full of stars one night and so crystal clear, I'm very upset I missed that picture :( One day I'll get it.

Next month is the Twilight convention. I just can't wait to keep getting away from work. I just wish I didn't have to work. I have so much I wanna do and not enough time to do it. It really sucks half the time I think of moving home to take care of my dad, sadly I can't. Just so much to do.. Maybe one day.. Just gotta keep wishing, hoping & praying.

Not much else to chat about now. :)

♡Manda♡

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I am not gonna lie I'm lame at giving posts a title xD.

I am so glad today is Thursday last day of work til next Wends! I'm so looking forward to this its crazy. I almost wanna take a half day today! I might actually see if that is possible somehow.

I get my paycheck today so we have the money for our trip Tomorrow-Monday. I am just so excited! I haven't had a true vacation in such a long time!

Anyways.. Ever feel like your on the back burner with some people. I know I feel this way at times. I think I wanna start renewing my faith in things, and I think I am gonna start that soon. Probably tomorrow. I wanna get out my bible and start doing a devotional again. I wanna find a good devotional book. I might start looking online. I think once I get right with God, maybe things will start to come together again. I need this, and I feel like its the one thing I keep ignoring in the back of my mind, but it just won't give up. I should of started today, sadly I didn't get up early enough. :/ So yeah tomorrow! I will even blog about it! I need to call my dad today too... I will do that this evening!

Well I don't what else to write, I'm afraid if I continue I will just ramble about things and I can't let that happen. So I'm off til after work!

♡Manda♡

PS. I am thankful I have Sofia right, she has helped me out a lot lately, and was inspiration for getting a blogger. I need a way to get things out! So thank you Sofia! :) Your an amazing friend, Thank You for loving and caring about me and always checking on me when I am down in the dumps! :)

Hmm.

I am glad to have a blogger again. To let feelings out and just take a load off.

Sometimes when nostalgia hits, I get really down on myself. I start to think, that maybe moving to New Jersey 5 years ago is what set off everything bad in my life the past 5.

Bad Things:

1. Things with Matt (they got better though and we are still together)

2. Grandma going into a nursing home. (She now doesn't even know who I am)

3. My dad lost the house, he now lives in an apartment.

4. My brother died. (I still can't handle that at all)


I just feel like my life is gonna get worse. In some aspects it has, I feel like I can't make the right choices when it comes to anything anymore.

The one thing saving me from me anything, is my faith, and my friends. I don't know what I'd do without them. I feel some slipping away from me, and that hurts like no ones business. But I know sometimes its best to just move on. I just feel like every time I try to move on, something bad happens. D: I really don't want anything bad to happen, so I try to just do nothing.

Blah, I need to stop depressing myself. It doesn't take to much to make me cry anymore and I can't do that before work. *sigh* My job is becoming more of a hassle then it used to. It used to be easy and breezy, and now its like a tornado of madness that never stops.

Sometimes I think therapy might help, but I really can't afford it. But at least I can get some feelings out without revealing to much.

Thank Gosh vacation is 3 days away. Friday get here fast so I can just get away!!! :)

♡Manda♡

Yay

I am so looking forward to my vacation to upstate New York this coming weekend. Expect pictures sometime the following week. I need a vacation. I haven't had one since last year, and I think my brothers funeral does NOT count as a vacation. :/ So yay Vacation #1 is happening so soon I can taste it. I can't wait to get away!


Next month is vacation #2 which is a Twilight Convention with my friends Sana & Rae ♥♥ I can't wait. Can't wait to meet the guests. I also can't wait to hang out more with Hillywood! They are such amazing people ♥♥ :D I love them. I will have to tell you more about them as I progress in my blog.

Vacation #3, which is totally saving the best for last is My first trip to Disney with my boyfriend Matt, and my roommate Nicole! She is pretty cool, and we are starting to hang out more. I really love that! While we are at Disney we will get partake in the Food & Wine Festival and the beginning of Christmas in Disney! I will get to see the Osborne Lights and go to Mickey's Christmas Party! This is a trip that both Nicole and I need seeing as she lost her mom and I lost my brother. This is our fun trip. So looking forward to it ♥♥

So yay vacations are happening finally!

♡ Manda ♡

New

I am new to blogger, but new to blogging. I used to have an LJ but do to something that happened in my life, I want a new blogging tool. So here I am! =) As I start to post more, more about will me come up, so stay tuned =)

♡ Manda ♡